Thursday, April 3, 2008 @ 6:59 PM
haiz.. was kinda sad to think tt i'm quite useless in many things lah. i dun think i'm useless la, but im juz pure lazy only.. if u wan to succeed, u can only depend on urself.. i wan to succeed but im not moving.. blank in my mind totally.. i dunno which step to take first.. i need some guide.. i always think alot, dunno why also.. wish to go for a brainwash sia.. sometimes i wish i am not exist in this world.. even my family thinks other ppl are better lah.. wat the hell!!!thinking of those past time we are always together no matter where.. you used to call me everyday no matter wat time..we always eat together at roma, swensen, eat mushroom...we sing, we laugh, we talk, we joke, we watch movies and do all sort of thing together..because of me, you're addicted to singing..because of me, you're addicted to roma mushroom soup..sometimes, went over to ur place and stay and we even went genting together..you're the one i thought to enjoy together after the 21 days..but now...i always treated you as my friend no matter wat..if not i would juz leave you from very very long ago and would not speak up for you when ppl dun like you, talk bad abt you.. i will not acc you to embassy for 2 times regardless how unwilling i am and i nv talk to you also not purposely de.. i also dunno why i will react in this way.. maybe you're now quite close with my sisters and family, everyone is saying how good you are and making me so damn useless.. it think maybe im juz jealous or watever shit.. but since you say you dun care, so let it be and forget it!!
oh ya, think tmr will be working at push cart selling cardigans.. actually is start from monday but the cart not ready yet and joanne say tmr den open.. she called me and asked if i can.. i say should be ok and i really have to work for the sake of money la.. really owe ppl alot, if nv work dunno when can clear my debt.. so ppl, come find me if you're free and buy from me.. call me if u wan noe where.. haha.. somemore, ytd went to zheng house play mahjong overnight.. and i still lose 42bucks.. sad man..
